I AM IN SHOCK!

Well, last week Celeste helped me weigh and I was very sad to see my weight was 327 pounds!  I mean I knew I was big and I knew I hated things about me and about being big but still that just sounds so awful!  Our digital scale died on me so that is why I needed help to weigh on the other one, if you get off the weight leaves so she had to look for me :)  plus if you bend over I am told the weight goes up.  Anyway, point of all this is she just helped me weigh again as my first offical weigh in after my starting weight and I LOST 2 POUNDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  I am in shock!  Part of me is like maybe she just read it wrong but she pointed at on the scale for me to see and unless she is fudging it to make me feel good I FINALLY lost a tiny bit of weight.  BUT that is the first step!  HEADING DOWN!  I am trying to come up with some walk away the pounds video's I can walk in the living room with at home so it is not dependent on my having a car.  Granted I am alone here and dont company to do it with , well unless you count Noah!  We have had some changes in our life and our home this week so I am spending alot of time reorganizing, moving things around , spring cleaning etc.  I know it is not exercise but for this week that will most likely have to count!  Anyway just thought I would share my loss!  A friend suggested I get folks to sponsor me that they will donate so much per pound loss.  LOL  I told her folks do not care that much if I loose weight!  heehee  Anyway for those few who may read this blog PLEASE send me your words of cheer and advise :)  It would be nice to feel like someone is cheering me on :)

Sharing and reflecting...

Hi all, or anyone, not really sure who was readin this when I was posting the few times I did.  Boy, looking back over 2009 and all I wanted to do and all I DID NOT do makes me so sad.  Not only did I not loose 20 in 09 I GAINED weight.  I am not positive at the moment what I weigh but it is NOT GOOD :(   I have committed that I am GOING to loose weight for Jeremiah!  I know, anyone that is reading...you are saying umm you said you were loosing weight last year and didnt.  Well, all I can say to that is YOUR RIGHT!  I can't tell you how, and I can't even tell you how much, I just know I feel like I need to loose weight to be a better mom for Jeremiah and NOAH as well really but with Jeremiah and his needs I will need more strength and more health and weight does not help those things.  I cry my eyes out when I think about this, when I think about the boys growin up with this MORBIDLY OBESE mama! :(  How much more could I do with them if I was smaller?  How much less will I embarrass them over the years?  And not to mention myself and how I can't stand how I look and hate being the biggest person I KNOW and the biggest person in the room when I go places.  I had my catchy title in 2009 but it did me no good.  So I started reflecting a bit on HOW am I gonna do this, and what am I gonna rename this blog???  Any ideas on the name guys????  I just know a few things.  I know I HAVE to loose weight and do what I can to do to be a better and healthier person.  I KNOW I need the LORD!  and my doc says I need some medication and she SAYS if I take this medicine correctly and they regulate things my body will do what it is suppose to do and I will loose weight.  Now, let me explain...  I have Insulin Resistence.  I dont completely understand it but it has something to do with how my body uses insulin.  According to my doc because of this it affects my ability to loose weight so even when I do what is right to loose and dont loose that is why.  Soo I am supposedly now on the right dosage of medication for my body to work correctly and so my attempts should be more succesfful! We shall see if she is right.  Now, I KNOW I must have GOD for this!  I keep thinking about 2010.  Now I KNOW I can't loose 2010 pounds in 2010 LOL  thank God I dont weight that much, and I can't even loose 201 pounds in a year.  I would PRAY I can loose at least 10 pounds in a year!  And I pray I can loose 10 lbs several times.  I guess the number of the year is 10!  Small goals this year I think!  So I guess what I am gonna do is see how many 10 pound goals I can make!  I will just start now with a goal of loosing 10 lbs and see how it goes and put all I have into that goal.  I will track how long it takes.  The prayer is I will get better at it and maybe my next 10 lbs will go quicker and easier than the first goes!  I DONT KNOW!  Also I am trying to figure out how to implement scripture into all this.  Any suggestions?  I have thought of tryint to memorize 10 scriptures per 10 lbs but I am NOT good at memorizing and dont want to set myself up to fail.  So I am thinking humm maybe I should work on reading differnt 10 scriptures.  Like Genesis 5:10, Psalm 3:10 etc.  I dont know how I would pic them.  Maybe just in my regular devotion time if I see a verse with 10 in it that speaks to me, then I can post it.  I DONT KNOW.  I seeme to be saying that alot!  anyway, if anyone is still reading, and I pray you are as I am definitly NEEDING support in this please comment and let me know.  I need to get a starting weight tomorow somehow.  Tryin to figure that out too as my scale is not working at the moment.  Anyway....is anyone out there?????

Blessings,

Tami~

Amazing Book Transformation God's Path out of Obesity

Transformation Book Giveaway Fundraiser!

Joy Rollins, Author of Transformation God's Path out of Obesity and owner of Tranformation Ministry has donated this signed copy of he book/study! :) If you would like a chance at this wonderful book the giveaway is $1 per name in the hat! ALSO if you would in addition to donating for a chance like to help spread the word about our adoption and will send out an email sharing about our families journey to Jeremiah with a link to our family blog and fundraising blog I will give you 5 names in the drawing per 25 names you email. Also if you will grab my button on the sidebar and put it on your blog then I will put your name in 10 times for the book giveaway! The more folks who know about Jeremiah and his severe needs and then spread the word the more likely we are to get donations, entries in our giveaway's and other possible things to help bring my sweet baby boy home! :) Also, I will be doing a Spread the Word Giveaway with separate items on my family blog and fundraising blog so be watching those too :) There are buttons on the sidebar to get to both of those :)

Thsi is the front cover of the book

Here is the back cover

Here is the autograph page! :)

This book was generously donated by Joy Rollins. She has an egroup and a ministry as well. You may contact her at gods_transformation@yahoo.com. Thanks so much Joy for your wonderful Generosity to help bring Jeremiah home!

Also, please remember my Weight Loss Challenge Fundaiser! Add a penny or a dollar per pound you loose to Jeremiah's Fund! :) Either way you are making a HUGE difference in the life of a child!

Weight Loss Challenge to Y'ALL!

Hi everyone,

Ok, so I have a weight loss challenge to you! Weight loss is an amazing thing that can happen when we allow the Lord to move over us and take that area of our life over! I am very much workin on that right now! As I am convinced the healthier I am , the better off ALL THREE of my children will be! So here is the weight loss challenge I give to y'all as I am givin to myself! :) I pray that some of you may want to join in with me in this! Every time I loose a pound I will donate a dollar to The Jeremiah Fund! LOL Now I pray I have an issue comin up with the funds! Anyway I just thought this might be a neat fundraiser to do with some of my friends who are striving to loose weight and get healthy! Sometimes when you have more motivation you can do better. So will anyone out there join me? and if you lost weight last week, donate $1 for each pound you lost to bring Jeremaih home! and if you can't afford $1 per pound, donate 1 cent per pound! Maybe if you look at each pound you loose helps this sweet baby boy who has never known a mother's arms yet, who struggles so hard day to day with his severe cerebral palsy, to be one step closer to being HOME FOR GOOD! Here is the lastest picture of my Jeremiah to give you motivation!

Jeremiah Harold Sisemore 1 year old!

Mama and Noah WesLee Sisemore! :)

from my heart

I wanted to write a bit today from my heart that is overflowing with love and closeness to the Lord today! Recently God has begun making lots of changes in our life, we are currently seeking His Face on what Church He would have us to be in, He has begun our new adoption Journey to Taiwan for Jeremiah :), my mother in law decided to move back to the rehab home where she made so many friends so she has moved out of our home, Celeste has taken a part time job in addition to her college classes, We are praying about opening our home in the fall to a foreign exchange student from Taiwan! Lots of Changes and things goin on in our lives right now. Not all of them have been easy. In the Church change relationships have changed and some of that has been VERY painful, walking into a big Church where I know noone and seeking God's face is a new and scary experience but I know that HE was there so that made it doable! I look at the financialy side of Jeremiah's adoption with my earthly eyes and it seems HUGE! I watch the baby fund NOT move, I watch giveaway fundraisers of donated items barely get any notice, and my human eyes get scared! Easter Sunday we visited a Church around the corner from our house and they sang a special of a song called "Through the Fire" It talks about He never promised that the cross would not get heavy and the hills would not be hard to climb! That when we stand in the valley of decision He will SHOW up and take us through the Fire again! That spoke so much to me at that time as I felt like I was bein hit by so much negativity for being obedient. That same song was sung again as a special this past Wednesday Night and again I felt it a balm from the Lord! Then Today in Church there was a guest preacher from the John Jacobs Power Force Ministry that will be at our Church all week as well as goin into the local school assemblies! Well, this preacher was on fire for God and he was preaching right to me! He spoke about the gift of Faith! And holding God faithful! He spoke about the KNOWLEDGE OF FAITH. That KNOWING that no matter how big the mountain is that GOD IS ABLE! I was balling! Here I sit HOLDING my evidence of Faith, of God is ABLE! I had Noah in my arms. I remember when we began the journey to Noah how I had NO CLUE HOW we would do it all and again and again GOD would show off and we got every penny , every paper, every everything we needed to bring Noah home and God was faithful! :) NO SURPRISE. I remember part way through that Journey I begged God for a sign that Noah was indeed ours and that it was gonna all come and He gave me that sign, the exact sign I asked for! I remembered all that today! As the pastor spoke about speaking things that aren't as if they are, WE DID THAT WITH NOAH! We spoke NOah as our son, the adoption as paid LONG before either was a fact in wordly eyes! God spoke to me today that I need to TRUST HIM and hold Him Faithful to move the mountains and bring Jeremiah home! It does not matter what my earthly eyes see! It does not matter what the world, or doubting folks in my life, or anyone or anything my say. MY GOD IS ABLE. MY GOD LOVES Jeremiah WAY more than we ever could! It is NOT about me being good enough, or worthy enough, or wanting too much by asking for another baby. IT IS ABOUT GOD and WHO HE IS! HE IS FAITHFUL! Through HIM I have the power to speak IN FAITH that Liang-Chung that waits in Taiwan is indeed OUR JEREMIAH HAROLD SISEMORE. and WHEN the adoption is FINAL we WILL travel to pick him up. GOD will do it! GOD will get the glory! And people will be touched, just like with Noah! YES, it can't happen like it did the last time, yes some of those grants are not available anymore, yes some loans are not available this time but that is all details that DO NOT MATTER! I either believe GOD or I dont! I CHOOOSE to HOLD GOD FAITHFUL! I CHOOSE to look on this entire situation with the adoption with eyes of Faith! I CHOOSE to look on EVERY hard thing with eyes of FAITH! God will show up and take me through the fire again! God will have the folks in my life that HE has to be there! I CHOOSE to follow in Him who I have believed! :) When God is for us, who can be against us??

Here is a video of the song Through the Fire :) and below is "I walk by Faith"

Physical or Spiritual or both?

Well I thought I would write a bit tonight. I am still definitly wanting to try and loose 90 in 09 but it is not lookin so good for it! Loosing weight has ALWAYS been an issue for me for whatever good reason or bad reason. Different docs have said different things. Anyway, We have had some things goin on this past week that were very difficult to deal with but definitly needed in our walk with God! We felt God leading us to step down from being children's Pastors and to go to another undetermined as of yet Church. We have been praying over this decision for a couple weeks and Bobby of course made the final decision and also decided when and everything this would happen. I have some emotional ties to a couple of ladies at our former Church not to mention some really great friends in them as well as the rest of the congregation. It was a very rough thing for me to think about leaving all these folks, esepecially at such a time as we are beginning the Journey to Jeremiah and his adoption and all. BUT, God is who we depend on and who we trust so we were very prayerful and making sure what we all heard God saying. We so wanted to make sure we were in HIS will for our lives. It was an emotional time in coming to the desicion of what to do but once the desicion was made there was such a peace. And even though it has not been received well by some at the former Church and I fear loss of friendships because of it, or so it seems at this point, but God is able to heal and restore, as I have also seen this week! Anyway even though all that is going on I fees such a peace in knowing we are moving in the direction of getting closer and closer to God! WHAT can be wrong in that? Well, in the midst of all this once the decision was made I began having just TONS more energy, and my appetite has been very small, but not in a bad way, just in a satisfied way. Not sure this is making sense or not. But it is like alot of things to me I am wondering if they are a physical manifestation of a spiritual issue. So now I am taking that a step further to my weight issues. I physical manifestation of a spiritual problem! just maybe soo. I am under stress as we work hard to try to come up with ways to fundraise TONS of money we need to bring our son Jeremiah home from Taiwan! but its a good stress but stress none the less, so I need to turn to Jesus more and more and make sure my food choices are nothing but good and energy producing. Part of me is petrefied about how quickly we need the money, how I am having to wait on money to send in USCIS paperwork, how I need to get payment to the agency and HOW am I gonna do it. I AM NOT GONNA DO IT. I am gonna pray, I am gonna share the need and tell everyone else to pray and to share the need. When I watch the three SHORT video's of my amazing son Jeremiah in Taiwan my heart just melts for him. I know his cerebral palsy is severe and he needs me so much, he needs me to get him QUICK. He has already been waiting a year and so I know that I must move quickly. All that could lead a person to eat badly. I am coming here to yall that are followin me on this weight loss blog to ask you guys to pray for me to not fall into fast food cuz I am busy fundraising, to fall into eating bad because I am busy, stressed, etc. and Please do pray for Jeremiah! Pray for his mama to be a healthier thinner mama as this journey goes on :)


Here is the four of us on Easter. Next year Jeremiah will be in the picture!


mama and Noah playin! :)

Hi all,




We had a dutch show bunny donated to us to help draw donations for The Jeremiah Fund. Well, obvisously this is a local fundraiser as I can't ship this sweet thing all over the country! Well, a little girl I know named Rachal, she is 11 years old, and she despretly wants to win this bunny! Her mother does not have alot of funds, works very hard to keep food on the table and it would be such a blessing for Rachal! Rachal has been coming up for ways to get dollars to put towards winning this rabbit! Mom has said she can have it if her name is drawn. My thought was maybe some of my online buddies would want to help. The chances for the bunny are $1 each. If you want to help Rachal win her bunny boy then please donate to the chip-in fund and for every dollar donation I will add Rachals name to the hat another time! Come on guys and help this little girl have some joy this easter and Help get Jeremiah closer to home!