in case anyone is wondering how I am doing...

this is me yesterday at a bridal shower in the room with tons of beautiful normal size people.  It is a very eye opening picture and one I never would have posted without cropping.  It was posted in with the pics from the shower on fb and when I saw it I burst into tears.  It is the truth, my reality.  So how am I doing.. this picture shows it.  awful... emotionally and physically.  I watched an extreme weight loss episode last night that we had on dvr and I thought I could not even do the things they were having them do at the very beginning.  Before my recent back injury that slowed down my trying I was still failing.  soo there you have it.