Sunday June 24, 2012 weigh in

Well, apparetly I forgot to blog last week's weigh in.  Last week my weight was down to 313 which was a loss of  1.4 lbs from the week before.  This week was our STAYCATION and I was a bit worried as we stopped all regular activities including the gym, therapy, appts, etc. and had a vacation in our own town :)  LOTS of fun :)  If you can't afford to go on vacation I highly recommend a staycation!  There may be free or very cheap things in your town too :)  Anyway, stuff with kids and illness and all kept me out of gym the week before pretty much too.  I have been working out some and we have been very active but truth be told I was very worried about a gain.  I am happy to say that did NOT happen.  A tiny loss but no gain!  It is good for me to have weeks like these to see that even when I can't devote alot of time to working out and health and fitness I can still maintain and maybe loose a bit.  Anyway, this week was a HUGE learning week for me!  A very emotional week.  I have had a glimpse into what I was missing in life for so long and a bigger glimpse into what  am still missing because of this Morbid Obesity.  So much of this week would NOT have happened a few months ago.  I would either have not even planned to do the things we did or if I did I would have made sure there would be a way for me to sit and someone to make sure kids had fun.  I am not saying this week was easy physically at this weight, because it wasn't, BUT it was more doable and it was fun.  Am I paying for it now!  YES,  prayerfullly the day will come when we can have a fun active week and me not pay for it so much.  I experienced such fun with my family.  I made a video that I really want to share.  It shows some pics of things I can do that I could not before and me being more willing to be in pictures with my kids and know that they need to see themselves with me in years to come and know I was here for them and experiencing life with them.  I still hate how I look but I am able to look now and see some changes!  I took pics of myself  in the mirror friday and when I look and compare I can see a bit of a difference and it makes me smile!  This video made me totally ball!  PLEASE watch it and please comment!  The songs used speak so hugely to things going on inside me and how I feel.  I had such a sweet time at home this morning with the Lord and I can feel him changing me more and more and healing me more and more!  Anyway, here is this weeks numbers and below it the video! If it wont all show on here cuz the column to small you can click at the end I think to go see it at one true media.  trying to figure out how to do this now.  Please let me know what you think :)

Loss for the week: - .8 lbs

Starting weight: 345 lbs
Current weight: 312.2 lbs
Total loss to date: 32.8 lbs

Total Percentage Lost: 9.5 %

BMI: 50.4

Pounds left to loose: 167.2

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Sunday June 10th 2012 weigh in

So today was weigh in day.  I was kinda worried this week because I had several days where not only did I not track but I had no control over food choices though I did over how much I ate of those foods, always trying to do less than I would normally and less than I would really like thinking that best.  And with added stress of my son having an unexpected surgery and hospitilization and some stress since at home with all this I am pretty happy with the fact I did not gain AND I lost something! I am loving this new scale from weight watchers you can decorate I saw online.  This is not my scale but its on you can buy and decorate!  I love the butterflies and alot of what it says :)  Someday I may get to splurge and get this :)  or go get some stickers at michaels for my current scale! :)

Loss for the week: - 1.6 lbs ( 1 lb 9 1/2 oz)

Starting weight: 345 lbs
Current weight: 314.4 lbs
Total loss to date: 30.6 lbs

Total Percentage Lost: 8.9 %

BMI: 50.7

Pounds left to loose: 169.4

So this puts me at 30 pounds lost!!!  woohoo This was fun to make because to make it seem real to me since I do not see it I had to go searching for pics of things that were 30 lbs!  Cool to know a bushel of lima beans unshelled or okra is 30 lbs!  I found the fruit an that looks like alot of fruit!  and then of course the mayo and fat is cool to see! 30 lbs is more than it seems when I look in the mirror if I look at this, which also means the 200 I need to loose total is way more than I even know by looking in the mirror.  

Sooo, having lost 30 lbs puts me at a little over 1/8 of my weight I need to loose being gone!  Soo  I just need to do this 7 more times!  The problem is it has taken me 5 months to get here which means at this rate it will be 25 and half more months before I am at goal and would have taken me at least 2 and half years to loose 200 lbs.  If was loosing 2 lbs steady a week like I should be I would be at least 46 pounds down instead of 30. BUT 30 is better than none down or a gain, so trying to be ok with this!

Saw this on a friends facebook this week and really liked it!  

good point!!!

Loved this too!  Always on the look out for inspirational things in the journey and mores the better when a butterfly involved! So, its weird to me because as big as I am I am such a girly girl!  Love purple, pink, flowers, butterflies, feminine things and feeling girly.  But because I am so large that seems weird to me and like I can't be that because of my size.  Does that make sense at all to anybody?  Someone questioned me recently when I said something about being a girly girl inside when I am not able to really be one.  So what do yall think??

Weekly weigh in times 2! Didnt post last week.

2 weeks weigh in report today!  Had some illness to deal with and did not post last week.  

May 27th Weigh in:

Loss for the week: - 1.8 lbs

Starting weight: 345 lbs
Current weight: 318 lbs
Total loss to date: 27 lbs

Total Percentage Lost: 7.8 %

BMI: 51.4

Pounds left to loose: 173

Weigh in from today June 3rd

Loss for the week: - 2 lbs

Starting weight: 345 lbs
Current weight: 316 lbs
Total loss to date: 20 lbs

Total Percentage Lost: 8.4 %

BMI: 51

Pounds left to loose: 171

Have been beyond tired lately.  The new diagnosis of a thyroid issue has brought answers but so far treatment is not helping.  I loved the above photo because I must say after 5 months and only 29 lbs lost I am not happy with me at all and I am very tired!  Battling motivation, Battling not quitting, But I am battling, so that is the positive in it!  I know this is going to take a long while and part of getting healthy is the ups and downs of figuring out what is going on with my body.  So at least that is happening and alot of learning is happening! 

Also wanted to share this!

Ok guys! I NEED your help! I am needing more motivation! Wanna help me out! You can help me with my journey no matter where you live!!! Please read! My Fitness Center, Fitness Lady Louisiana Womens Fitness and Water Aerobics, is doing this fun thing called Footsteps tofitness. Collectively she wants all the members to log enough miles to add up to enough to walk from here to New York. So she started June 1st and she is keeping track of every mile of exercise of each member to try and do it. Well, I plan to be a part of that with her but I am also planning to log it myself for me to see how many miles of walking, elliptical, treadmill, excercise class, etc I can log for the month of June. Just to see , ya know! I will be much fitter at the end of June and it will be cool to see how much I have accomplished! Now, here is where you come in! SUPPORT ME! YOU DO IT TO! Let me know what you are doing to be fit, if you walk a mile, run it, job it, crawl it, do on elliptical, treadmill, do a class that would make up for a mile of movement, do a walk away the pounds video or whatever come and let me know! I want to keep track and see how many miles my friends and I can do! :) I wanted to do this as a document but couldnt figure out how, hoping as the picture it will work and folks can find the picture each time they come to my page and put there exercise in the comments! :) If you exercise once a day and want to put it do, if you exercise 2 times come twice or keep track for a few days and then tell me, whatever works for you. My hope is feeling like I am doing this with all my friends will keep me motivated! And I can come back and share what I am doing each day! It is going to be a long 2 years to loose all my weight and I need ways to stay focused! I think for the month of June this will be a great way! SOOOOOO, Who is with me??? Here is the link to  join in :)  TamiJoy's June Footsteps to fitness challenge!

anyway, until next week